yo...it's been some time since i last blog ler..haha...was rather busy these few days.. so didn't have the time to blog.. nothing much happened actually...

still trying to grow fat and tall...now there's another thing i want to do.. look whiter...

saw xinyan today at marina square at around 10. then she msg me to tell me that i am very tanned.

she look slimer than last time though, i thought she starved herself at swiss but then she replied that "xinyan will never starve herself, that's my principle"..hahaha..then i wonder why ler..

still got a lot more hw to do....but also want to spend more time with huimin. haiz...sometime you will never get to have both, have to sacrifice one thing for the other...

school starting soon ler...then no time to be with her ler..cause everything just starts pouring in. then tomorrow still have to go woodland for chingay thing...opss. actually it's today..cause it's morning 1.24 am ler...haha

cheat erich that we meet at 7.15 then take bus to woodland...but actually we are meeting at 7.30..hahaha..cause he everytime late de.. then i have to wait for him...so sorry erich..hahaha.

today went back to school for banner painting...didn't do much actually cause the things are almost done. just need to paint it.

it's suppose to be banner painting but it turned out to be banner drawing...met yun yun and jee, at school..it has been sometime since i last saw them..really missed the day we actually made fun of yun yun and to see everyone laughing together..

went jogging in the evening at bedok reservoir, cause i want to build up my body. after jogging went to do pull up..sit up..and jump around..hahaha....no wonder i'm so skinny.. exercise so much..no matter how much i eat, will be gone after the run.

then my mum was complaining about me using com until late at night...hahaha...now is holiday eh..just one more week then school will start and i will be back to...haiz....(you know where)..then really want to treasure the remaining time....

bless me...

it's being some time since i blog ler..well..maybe it's because i'm too happy and bliss ler..yesterday is the most important day ler...beside once a again being an uncle..."actually i was an uncle"...hahaha...there's one more thing which is also very important and i will remember

4e2 gathering is on 23 of dec...it's a christmas eve eve pary..please bring a gift of budget between $5-$10...and some cash..spread the msg...

this week is coming to an end again,...haiz...time passes by so fast. i'm left with two more weeks to finish my work. two more weeks to school reopen.

how i wish that walk has no end..

today went to escape with my aunt, cousin and sis cause my aunt is returning to china next sun. so took her out to play, but she didn't play anything. she just sat there and waited for us to Q finished and came out..

i was drenched at the end of the day.

then went to vivo...and it rained half-way. because i didn't get a chance to change into my dry clothes so inside the taxi, i was shivering and when i alighted at vivo. it's super cold..but well. i endure until i changed into my dry clothes. then went to sentosa followed by underwater world. saw a lot of BIG fish..didn't take much picts with my phone..the picts are with my cousin..(she has a new N95 phone, was playing with it in the morning)...

after that, we wanted to watch the performance near palawan beach..(i don't know what the thing is called)...but we didn't buy the tickets so we didn't get in..so we take the cable car back to Singapore...it's my first time taking cable car. it's fun and nice...if the floor is translucentor maybe the whole cable car is translucent...then it would be even better..

we went katong to eat after the cable car.

ah..one more thing. escape theme park is having a promotion. the normal admission price is 16 bucks..but from now till jan 2008 it cost only 7 bucks to enter...

今天一整天下来都提心吊胆。。一直都在担心。。做什么事都不能专心。。

haiz..

'have been out for the past few nights...must stay home for somenight before i can stay out late again...today went back for guitar practise. cc called for a last mintue practise and then it rained in the morning, every one would want to stay at home and sleep. then only a few people came..haiz..can't expect too much.hahaha

then the 4e2 gathering is coming soon also..realised i haven't confirm a lot of things...

http://takey.myweb.hinet.net/miss8.htm


go and read this touching love story,...but it's in chinese..

finally...managed to find a modem and connect it yesterday night. slept at 1 plus because i was connecting the modem..



on 9 the dec. went to a birthday celebration party. my primary school friend's birthday. we weren't doing anything at first because there's nothing much to do also..he ordered buffet dinner for 30 people but less then 20 people were there..in the end some of us have to da bao home. the stupid weather these few days are really spoilt the original plan of having the buffet near the swimming pool.

we played dice, cards then nothing much ler..

then at around 10..we took the cakes out and ready to smash him...after blowing off the candles..we put two candles in the centre of the cake and asked him to take it out with his mouth, once he lowered his head to take out the candles, my friend pushed his head down and then he was also smashed with raw eggs,..so disgusting. it's sticky, oily and the stench..rrr...

my other Friends ran away while the birthday boy was smashed.. we thought we escaped being smashed with cakes..but we didn't..he came over and pretend to be nice, then all of a sudden he picked up the cream and smashed at me..the cream covered my nostrils, my spec then couldn't see clearly...my shirt and pant couldn't escape also..i ate a lot of things there..very full.

then yesterday went back to his place again to drink..his father gave permission to drink. he opened a bottle of red vine for 6 people..i took a slip of it but then it's so bitter that i stopped drinking after that...and my head hurts after that..so i didn't drink much also.. erich didn't even touch it..zhiyuan drank one cup...

ah..there's also another thing i want to complain...at around 6 we decided to order Mac..because the weather is really bad and we don't want to go out and eat..but then no one wants to dial the damn 6777 3777..mac hotline..we dragged until 7 then i couldn't stand it so i picked up the phone and dial the number..but they couldn't take out order cause the weather is so bad near tanah merah..so we waited for the rain to stop so that we can go out to eat..so stupid..hahaha..

before we left his house we were singing our hearts out in the living room not because we are drunk, but we are very happy.hahahaha

my moldem spoilt ler...so now can't conneCt to internet and won't be able to chat for long ler..i will go buy one soon...XOXOXOXO

this song is for you..my regret...


It’s too late now, still I’ve got something to say…
Girl I’m sorry that I treated you that way
Time has gone now, and the moment has passed…
When I had the chance to try and make us last
All alone now,
and it’s no one’s fault by mine…
Couldn’t see the truth, I had those blinded eyes
You have moved on, still I don’t give a damn…
Gotta get this off my chest while I can

[Pre-chorus:]
(How… I… need… you… more…and more… will… you Come…back… to…me… please?)

Every single hour,
Of every single day, I
Miss you more and more,
Don’t know what to say,
I Know I closed the door,
You’re gone and on your way
But now, I need you, I need you…

[Chorus:] [2x]
Wanna take it back to the day when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret

Should have known then, what I know now…
Dying every second that you’re not around
Should have been there, when you needed me…
Now I’m by myself, on my bended knees
Should have loved you, while I had the chance to…
Couldn’t realize that you were the truth
Should have shown you, what you meant to me…
Baby now I see, that you were my queen

[Pre-chorus:]
(How… I… need… you… more…and more… will… you Come…back… to…me… please?)

Every single hour,
Of every single day, I
Miss you more and more,
Don’t know what to say,
I Know I closed the door,
Sent you on your way
And now you’re gone…

[Chorus:] [2x]
Wanna take it back to the day when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret

[Instrumental]

[Chorus:]
Wanna take it back to the day when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret

it has been raining for this whole day..i can't go out to watch sun set...but to stay at sports hall playing badminton...it's so long ago since i last touch the racket. about half a yr ago. well i can't still play quite well..was suppose to call zhiyuan but didn't because i thought erich was going to call..and he thought i was going to call, so in the end no one called him.

he was cursing when we give him a call after the game, said why didn't called him to play. very sorry zhiyuan..hopefully it won't happen next time. heehee

thank god ying hua got called her bf to come or else we will be 2 vs 1 ler..andrew though was a basketball player, he can still play. he will be a good player if given time to train. next time can ask him out to play again..his strength is so huge. everytime hit out..

tomorrow got nothing to do...i'm still looking for job though it's near to new school term and got hw to do....

saw this at my friend's blog and i thought it's interestine so i take it and put it at my blog..

went to do cip today..sell flower to support world aids day, which was yesterday. had lots of fun..because we see a lot of weird people asking weird questions...and i said some rubbish also..like...we are not supporting aids but trying to increase the awareness of aids....ya la..when i said this, some people actually laughed and bought flower from me...there's another time i said." we are supporting aids"..when it's supposed to be."we are supporting world aids day."..kevan laughed like shit lah..haha...we didn't get any commissions like the volunteers for the marathon..they recieved $>20...and a 20%discount of any Adidas items..so good. junkai was complaining all the time about the treatment.


after lunch...we went slacking...then went to the library inside explanade..junkai and kevan manager to solve the code for the lock that locked the bag...then we were thinking of arranging the money in order and out it back..but we know that once the person open the bag and found the notes all in order, they will smell something fishy and then we are dead...haha

slacking after lunch.

aren't them beautiful.

you can see the number of monkeys there..because basically all the bins are like that.

today...1st of Dec..nothing much happened today also, but went to sim lim square with my cousin to buy camera..initially she likes the T200 sony digital cam...it cost $580plus in the first shop we went to...then it went up to $600plus in the sec shop and dropped to $550 in the third shop we went to. she likes the outlook and the colour and it's within her budget..so we went to buy..when we wanted to buy it, the uncle, Kenny, told us that T200 sony is not good and it wastes money. because the resolution is not good..

so he recommended another brand...Nikon. to us..and really the quality is much better then T200, although it's touch screen..(i like it). but the picts taken by the two cam really differ a lot...Nikon won sony..the price is $525 offered by kenny...but my cousin lowered the price to $500 eh...she's powerful...next time when i want to buy anything, i will call her to go with me..the she also bought another battery which cost $60 if it's sold to ang mo...but $30 to my cousin...she bargained until kenny gave in and sold it at $30...

over there, i saw a MP5...lol..it's cool..though i don't know the functions yet..but i believe it would be much better than Mp4..i want one...cause right now, i can't listen to musics through my phone...14MB can't save more than 3 songs..haiz.....must work work work to get money oh...

didn't went to eat dinner as promised...i'm suppose to have dinner with my aunt who came here recently. i went to help erich with some stuffs...and so i didn't go..i had dinner with zhiyuan and erich instead..after that went to zhiyuan's house to watch movie..

that's all..tomorrow morning has to wake up early to go for CIP...

damn it...the night before yesterday night, which is 28 of nov...i was so tired that i couldn't sleep...i had that kind of 被鬼压de feeling...many times i stopped breathing and lost control over my body...when i could finally breath and move again...i lost it the moment i close my eyes....i decided to listen to some music,..as i really couldn't stand it anymore...music will calm me down...but my stupid phone, the damn speaker couldn't work even after i performed CPR for it...i decided to use the wire instead...ah...finally get to listen to some music..it really calmed me down and help me to sleep through the night...but...however!!!when i woke up..i found my phone lying on the floor, in pieces...damn it...i fall asleep without plucking out the wire..and i accidentally pulled the whole phone and dropped it on the floor...

NOW...the phone couldn't detect the memory card...i have only 12MB for music, pictures and videos...haiz...so geh xin...then i went to the sony ericsson shop at Simei there to see if i can still use my warranty card which was over on Oct...they said can't use it anymore...then i asked them if i want to repair the phone..how much would it be...it cost 70 bucks..plus..minus..

haiz...it is so ex...i didn't repair it...just let it be and wait for another yr before i can change my phone..lol..(if anyone know how to repair or got any where which charge cheap for repairing..pls tell me)

what happened is yesterday,..what's going to happen is tomorrow..we can't change them or predict them..so let's just enjoy the present..

yo..haha..just came back from guitar camp this afternoon at around 3pm.

this whole guitar was a success but only one thing. the number of participants taking part in the camp sucks...only half of the 50 people...or maybe less then that..haiz..that's the only thing that didn't meet my expectation..even though i know that the attendance is not going to be very good, somehow i'm still sad that not all attended. however, a small group of people may not be a bad thing cause i can focus on them more and give them more attentions..

J2 people came back to help out, to give talks..and i appreciate their effort...not just the member but the exco also has to do some reflections.

the weather is good for the camp...many activities runs well and they enjoy them...really like seeing the interaction between everyone...through this camp...i can see that some of us really make new friends and this camp will stay inside them ..in their heart. a pity some didn't go..ya. but well...there will be next time.

today just ended the ogl camp with wet activities...i'm the game ic..but only one group camp to my game..i can't try out the improvised activity..the timing of wet and wild is not so good..like MMM..but MMM is worse then wet and wild..get shoot by the ogl so fierce that it's not enough to do the briefing in 30 min...hahaha..that's how bad the game is..

some group has to run all the way to Toa Payoh to play the game leh...that's like so dump...went all the way there..not far meh...and we have to reach there in 30 mins..the councillors said they tried going there and they made it in that period of time...but who can tell anything in the future...no one can tell. so don't always assume that what sc can do can be achieved by ogls...because too unforeseen events can happen..can the ogm do that...hahaha..hope the sc's will do something...i made some new friends...hahaha...

4-5 hours of sleep every night is a torture to someone like me who needs to sleep more then that...but sometime a msg or two can really like made me forget about my tiredness...

but tomorrow still got guitar camp...and the logistic things is still not done yet..but i'm so damm sleepy now...forcing my eyes to open wide to make myself a lert.....yawn...yawwwwwwwwwwnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!jia you...tomorrow another camp..haha..

the SC's are more tired then us...every night they have to do briefing until very late...sleep lesser then me..you guys are good people..haha. heard that there's a SC sleeping at one of the MRT while waiting for the OGLs to come for MMM...(heard is YUnZhi).the group arrived and circle her, but she didn't realise and continued sleepingun,..until the group woke her up...so..poor thing, the councillors.. my heart is with your..hahaha..jia you!!!!

i think there's a misunderstanding of what i write in my blog....i'm really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really sorry...i didn't mean that way... i didn't mean it to turn out that way...there's a misunderstanding..and now is my turn to clear it....will you give me a chance. i'm so sorry.

19nov2007..00.07am..a msg that ends my source of joy and blissfulness..another moment i will remember for life...

lossing you for two time..and this time,..it worst than previous one.

is it really fair...? have you though whether i want it or not...do i want to give up like that..i don't know if i dare to xi huan another one or not....i hav lost my yong qi ler...no confidence ler....once is enough...it's so painful..hao tong..hao tong...hao tong...

17/11/07..the day i will remember for life...for as long as i still have a clear mind...stupid lighter that fails me...failing my plan...next time i will bring a few lighters...i will always remember the warmth of your hand when i first held it..it's so touching...i don't think i will forget the feeling at that point of time..

i was at a lost of words, nervous..mouth was so dry...trembling.. 语无伦次。。that kind of feeling is so unforgettable..and i can't find a word to relate it...but it's deep down in my heart....I'm so so so so so so^X xinfu...XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

learn a few things today, first..i learnt that sometime the hard work you put in will not be appreciated by other people..

today was actually the first time that i put in game for guitar practise, they know that guitar practise is boring, dull..sian...and some, i think, find no purpose to come for practise. and so i would like to make guitar practise no just about practising guitar and arrange to have squash after lunch break.. the practise time was from 9 to 3.. lunch break from 12 to 1.. that's a very long practise hour. so i hope to make it fun by having some game...but well, no one bothers...

not said no one lah..at least zhenyan, jiahui, Rebbecca and the exco did stay back and play lah... some of them actually left when i went down to book the court..GEM them...next time..wait..there won't be next time ler...haiz...disappointed..

i will not take about the second incident..cause it also make me sad, hurt me..but well it's my fault anyway...not going to let it affect us..time will erase it...

though it's all sad and disappointed events but i really learn something from them..jia you..zhiyong..you can do it..jia you!!jia you!!!jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!sunshine after rain,..

yesterday was the J1 bash...only lam and junkai(who has to go) went for it...and it's also junkai's 17th birthday.. so the few of us, kelvin, ronald, kevan, arvin, lam, zhang chuan and me celebrate for him outside the pub...

we bought him a 4-4 Rubi's cube and a key-chain that is a 3-3 rubi's cube..and also kelvan bought him a pair of slippers...we didn't buy him a cake lah..but bought him 17 puffs..then we wanted to ask for 17 small candles but the aunty don't allow..not fun any more, initially we want to use the re-lightable candles for him to blow..hahaha..but kevan didn't bring...

so after getting all the stuffs ready., it's time to find the place..the pub.......had a hard time finding it..called many people to ask...didn't call jk lah..so as not to alert him. when we found the place, we started to lay out the puffs and hide..we asked lam, who's in the bash to bring jk out then we give him a SURPEISE...hahaha..but i think he know already the moment lam carried one of the puff with candles on it..but well..never mind..

so we sang birthday songs and asked him to stand a distance away form the candles to blow it out..and jk proved to us that he is really worth calling jk...he blew out the candles eventhough it's far away form him...got huge lung capacity..hahahaha...

then everyone started eating..heard from lam that there's no food inside the bash..no food for lam leh!!!! ..how can your treat lam like that...food is what he needs most lah..hahahaha..no food is as good as taking his life away lah..hahaha

initially wanted to wait for someone to go home together but the plan didn't carry out..a regret.

yesterday went to AMK hub...yup all the way there. it's simply because erich's squash competition is at yio chu gang..so though of going there and because i haven't been there also. initially there's only a few people, but then more people came...zhiyuan also came..he said he's going to study with his friends but was being "fang fei ji" le. so he came..

we didn't spend a lot of time at AMK, after a while, we wanted to go Novena Square. we saw this blind guy trying to get up the escalator and so kind-hearted Erich walked up to offer his help, help him get up the escalator and help him buy a can of drink...but one thing he did that really make us laugh..he asked the blind man whether he wants to keep the reciepts...hahaha..we were laughing like mad..blind man leh..how he see..hahaha..but he's still a kind guy..

Novena square got nothing much to shop and not much crowd also.. so we shifted to orchard Far East...walk a few rounds and met a lot of friends. it's like a mini gathering...

pictures i took at pasir ris beach..

a friend just asked me some relationship stuffs online...she asked me, if i break up with my gf because i think that there's a problem between the way we communicate...will i still look back at the relationship...(patch up)...

well i simply told her this, " before you think of patching up with him, do you think the problem (communication) still exists or not..if it exists then why bother to..cause the outcome would be the same..breaking up eventually..and of course does your heart still yarn for him or not...(i didn't tell her that)...感情是要两方面的付出，不是单方面的..( told her this also..but i can't translate it into eng..sorry.)....

if the guy don't want, then you can not pester him also..maybe just let him go.. it may not be a bad thing, if the two of you are really meant for each other, then no matter what, you will still cross each other's pathway.. and eventually be together again, though the journey maybe long, but in the end, it makes the whole relationship, the journey even more memorable, unforgettable and treasurable。so don't have to force it..let nature takes it's own course..."

well, she said she's going to wait for another few more months...i told her..do you think it's worth it...wasting your time on someone who don't love you anymore...hoping that he will turn back but in fact he won't even look back at the relationship...(my own feeling about it, i didn't tell her that)..."really..is it worth it or not..different people will have different views..so i won't comment on it..it's really up to individuals..

she also said that there's something obstructing her way to carry on her normal life...then i also told her," it's up to you whether you want to let this obstacle to block you way, or to remove this obstacle that's blocking your way...get if off your heart. it's a pain to keep it..." well that's the end of the conversation..of course i told to be the usual girl that we all know lah..and i think she' s sensible enough lah..hahaha..love..

i hope today's blog will somehow will help someone at somewhere sometime....but all i can do is to talk about this but no real actions..haiz..coward..

don't know what to say today..ya..but just blog for the sake of blogging bah..if anything that needs to be remember it will be "fate" bah.. my friends and i were discussing about it and then really..it makes me wonder also...ya..if i could just know you earlier...haiz...time is the most cruel thing...dame time...

yesterday was a fruitful day. my guitar exco went to Pasir ris beach there to plan out the activities for the guitar camp that will comment during the end of Nov.. take a few pictures also...will be shown next time.

why i said it's a fruitful day? well..it's because initially there's no games for the camp. but after yesterday, we have came out with a number of games and i'm sure it's going to be fun on that day.

we stay at the beach from 3 plus in the afternoon to 10 plus in the night.. at around 6 plus, we went back to civilisation(ws) for dinner( saw RON there with his haising VB junior, didn't see LAM..hahaha) then went back to the beach again to test out the game, we have a night walk at the mangrove swarm with tourches lah..well...because non of us actually carrys a tourch with us, so we have to go into the SUPER DUPER dark mangrove swarm with only arvin's hp light,...it's super scary...and i'm sure that will leave them a deep impression.. woooo..

after that we went to the Human Maze..upon entering, we were greeted with spider webs....(as can see, how long the maze has being used)..when we are in the core of the maze, we were once greeted by red ants..climping up my legs, luckily i killed it before it climped any further up...hahaha

the last place that we went was the playground near Fisherman's Village. had a lot of fun there, over there we made full use of the facilities. we have games for almost all the facilities...the camp (if approved) will be fun,..(need a lot of funds also..haiz..)

p.s: ehhh...hmmmm...sorry for not being able to meet you...ya..really sorry.

people, friends, family members of 4e2.....a news for your.....

we will have a Christmas eve eve party...23 of DEc...make that day free.....yeap..update your again.

went to school this morning to open the guitar room to let jia yi take her guitar, but think someone mistook her guitar...so she has to wait until fri to see who took her guitar.

then after that went to Arts friend with yanxuan and evan..though i can find the things or at least give my some inspiration, but well, it didn't...ya.

though of going to pasir ris beach before i msg yanxuan to lend me her Arts friend membership card...

yanxuan asked me about 4e2 outing..haiz.....like what huilin (welfare rep) had said, there's so many things that we can do but we don't have the require funds..hope i can also find some "gudong"..hahaha...hmm..yanxuan suggest an Christmas eve gathering..well it's not a bad idea...cause every year i will go to my friend's house for the same party also...haha..not bad oh...

then at around 6..went down to buy some stuffs to cook for dinner, met charmaine and xiaomin at Big BOokShOP...i intend to look up at some cook book to decide what to cook, but then didn't..and so just buy anything i can think of and went back home...

find out a lot of 4e2 people today from charmaine and xiaomin,..it shows that i should start to pay more attentions to 4e2 people...hmmm.....ya.

met suet jing at TP there, hahaha such a coincidence, it's been how long since i last saw her....(met solomon too)..hahaha..she's still "piao piao dang dang"...just like me...

hmmm.. now come to think of.. i met a lot of people today at one go. i saw my lao peng you at the coffee shop near my house at around 9 when i went down to buy Neutrogena facial wash.. well he didn't change a bit.. like what he said about me too..i'm just like Ctrl+C then Ctrl+V...my face was a copy from the past when we were young..that's a interesting way of saying someone who didn't change..

2 nov..it marks the end of op...the last stage of pw...i should be feeling happy, super happy, but the fact is i didn't feel that way. not at all...cause it marks the end of that week...the end of time.

i'm lost from that day on...

today was suppose to go school for op...but didn't cause don't have..i though my group has..so sorry..hm...

then asked yun yun to help me print the verification slip to collect my GV membership card..thks yun2...and my birthday treat, a free movie ticket when i buy one,,,, asked russh to go watch with me, he said don't want, he want me to reserve it..but tomorrow is the last day le...so then watch it with my mum..

we went to GV at tam to watch "brother"...i must say, this is a very good movie to watch...casue it keep you in suspense till the end..yup..it's worth the price..heeheeeee..cfutbf??!!

just one more week, we are left with only one more week. that's all...after that we will separate and say bye bye.....hopefully we will cross our pathway someday...i want to treasure every minutes, every second but you don't allow it..lord. why?

yesterday i went to east coast park for a walk...looking at the people fishing, at the calmy sea but missed the sunset...did feel better after that...

http://koji1227.imeem.com/music/_VhCEV3p/element_how_do_you_heal_a_broken_heart/

how to you heal a broken heart >>>

I can't believe what i just heard
Could it be true
Are you the girl I thought I knew
The one who promised me her love
Where did it go
Does anybody ever know

(C)
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again
Oh no
I just can't let go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
Oh no(A)
Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I'll pretend to let you go

(girl)And were you ever what you seemed
Or was I a fool who fell in loveWith his own dream
And now you say you want to leave
Start a new life today
Those words I thought you'd never say(C)

(A)
Tonight I'll hold what could be righ
Tomorrow I'll pretend toWake and put it all behind me
And find that I have finally found
A new life
In my soul
And find that I know how to let you go
You go(C)

Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow i'll pretend toWake and put it all behind me
And find that I know how to let you go

以经过了好久，
心还是在流泪。

说好会不哭，
只要你幸福。

没有见到你的身影,
没有听到你的声音。


没有了时间，
却多了思念。

每一次删除你的简讯，
就好像在删除我们的回忆。

就让我们回到最初的开始。。

a day with mixed feeling...both happy and sad...we will seeeeeeeeee........

still as low as ever...but then something very stupid i did today that really brighten my day...don't want to talk about the early part in chinese class... ms tan walk out of the class. and so we don't have chinese today lah basically....

so don't want to talk about that...well, after so called "chinese class", went to ws with friends to eat lah...then still have to go back school for guitar meeting... when it ends, it's around 3plus le..play some stupid card game with s301 class people, until now, i stilll can't solve... GEMIT...hahaha

GEM IT...new term that i'm going to use...

after that, was supposed to wait for erich to go michael's house to teach him, cause tomorrow is Combine science(cheM) o-level exam.. but he got squarsh training, so i went along.

listening to janice weilan's song"never let you"along the way, it made me feel emo...

now is the fun part, i was teaching two other friends of michael at the funtion room, but they went out after a while to take a "breath" so i also went out, wanting to chat with michael. outside the funtion room sat this guy about the same size as michael, same hairstyle, about the same built.. so i though it's him,

then sat beside him, at the arm of an armchair, and pat "him" on the back, (i wasn't looking at him at that time, i was looking at some people playing pool) and said,"eh........." as i said that "eh", i turned around and to my horror, it's not michael but a resident...i was so stun,

he look at me, and i look at him...so throw face lah..immediately i said sorry and left...so so paiseh lol.. i was amazed at myself also sia..how come never see clearly first then sit down...i laugh like shit when i'm out of the room..

don't dare to go his house again lah,...if see the guy again,.blur...wondering what was he think at that time.."siao, who's this guy"

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh

我也不知道为什么在我的生命中虽然有很多人离离合合，可是你的离去却带来这么多的痛。。。我也以为你也许只是我生命里的一个过客。不会逗留，可是我错了。你的存在的却影响了我。。你不再是一个过客那么简单了，而是一个常客。但是我也更清楚的知道，有一些东西不管有多不舍得还是要放手，（像阿木的歌）。。应为这是为了你好，也是最好的抉择了。

我并不是想让你难过，真的。最不想看到的就是你难过的样子，就算要离开也要笑着离开。至少不要让我看道你难过得离开，应为这样会让我心碎，让我伤心，会让我后悔放你走。。

不要让我觉得这样。

所以你不可以难过，要勇敢。知道吗？人生的分分合合，其实也是一种希望，有分就会有合，没有分就没有合了。还是会见面的。。。

我想我会习惯一个人的孤单和安全感。。。

志勇下。

人最大的罪孽就是贪念。。得不到的人一直渴望得到。。可是得到并不代别一定会是你的。。得到的人却一直担心会失去，拼命得想留住，可是到最后还是要说再见。。得到不一定是件好事。..。因为得到后失去才是最痛的。。。失去的可能又复得，得到的终究会失去。。如果失去又复的，那么那是多么珍贵，好好珍惜。得不到就代表没有缘。。不必要强求。



人们都知道说失去后才知道珍惜，每个人都知道，可是又有多少人真的会在失去前去珍惜。。谈何容易。。。



挣扎了好久。。一直不敢问的问题还是问了。。你真的要走了嘛？？虽然我知道答案，但是还是要问，不管心里有多么的不想听到。。。我等着回复。。你说对不起，让你失望了。。要走了。好好珍惜剩下的时间。。心一时沉了下去。。好深好深。。见不到底。



你说有一天我会忘了你，有新的开始。到那时就不会在伤心了，不会在难过了。你是一个很普通的女孩，并不是很突出，在我的生命里没有太大的影响力。。会遇到更好的女孩子的。。到那时一样会忘了你。。我不知道。。我真的不知道，应为在某年某月某一天，某样东西或某一个人一定会勾起回忆。让我再一次回到没有你的世界。。好想再回到梦里。。不要叫醒我。



志勇上。。。

we all know that time will heal ones' wound..but do we know why...it's because it erases ones' memories..when all the happy memories are being erased then you won't feel the pain any more...because when there's nothing to think of, naturally one won't feel sad...as it is all lost in time, can't be retrieved..no rewinds..no second chance...gone forever..ever......so before anyone really leave you... give them an forgettable memory..one which will stay in him or her forever.. and beside that..don't leave any regrets..my motto (but i don't think i'll be able to do that, what a failure)..

i've never dare to ask you the question.."are you going away for sure"...cause i'm afraid of the answer...but i think i know the answer le.. if you think that's the best way out..all i can say is..jia you in your next stage of life..

was feeling low these few days..from wed onward.

don't know what to write so i'm not going to write..

mr tay's baby holding on to my pinky..goshh..super duper cute lah..so peaceful..

today was a tiring day..but meaningful day. a great time together with Friends.

woke up at 8.52 am...preparing to go tam mall delifrance to collect wr from ms fau..her msg a bit confusing..she said meet at tam delifrance, century square. at first i though it's at tam mall delifrance. so i went there, but she wasn't there. so i went to cS delifrance..that delifrance is under renovation..lol.. still got a bit to change and the Op really has to be done by tue or wed already...jia you..

after that went out with felix, sherlyn, yanxuan, sam, kelvin, wenfong to marina square's kiddy palace to buy baby stuffs for mr tay..cost 72.5...
nick said don't want to go last min, cause too far, and it's my fault also cause i didn't tell him the place first..
same old kelvin..never change sia..as wacky as ever...
for sam., didn't change much also..grow taller a bit bah..
sherlyn loss a bit weight bah..think so..heehee.
felix and wenfong didn't change also..
yanxuan also didn't change lah..kao, see her in school everyday mah..haha..but hor today i think she's very moody..a bit emo sia.. always in her own world. and can't seem to communicate well with her leh..that's what i think lah..maybe not bah..or i over react le..

after that went to charmaine's house to celebrate her birthday...then talk about the old times...hahaha..so funny when we talk about the past and laughed at it...very happy today..engliang so inelasticity sia..insensitive..must spend more time with her mah..hahaha..

around 6.15..left charmaine's house and went for 211 BBQ.. taking same bus with mich..along the way, she's actually msging samuel sia...they only take a look at each other only..hahaha..crap lah..sam.

was very funny when mich and i were J-walking the high way..she don't want do walk and was standing at the side there crying,,"don't want..ah!!..hahaha..."in the end, i have to pull her with me to the other side..or we will still be there..""Ah-ing..''''hahaha.. (=_='')lol..

yun2 has night-blindness..then was playing with her..cause there's path where there's no light..she was feeling her way lah basically..haha. it's the same when we went back home..i was looking for walking sticks for her..hahaha..damn fun playing with yun yun... now know why lam likes to bully her..haha

went to sit at the beach with mich, yun yun and guang hao..looking at the sky. the sea..the gentle breeze..got food..everything is nice..perfect but looking at the person sitting beside me.(mich)..haiz..wrong person..hahahaha..mich and i said that at the same time..heeheee=P...

but all in all. it's a wonderful night..had fun, laughter and food..thanks kevan..for organising this.. really enjoy it..

it was a terrible day today, not because anything bad happen or what..in fact it was quite fun today, but for today nothing seems to get my attention. was feeling a bit low..

morning went back to school to mark attendence and then no class. i was merely back to mark my attendence, then after that went to library to loan some VCD and went to shaun's house to watch..guang hao, engliang and i...we watched windtaker.. not a bad movie.

watching movie wasn't part of the original plan. the original plan was to go airport to do either pw or op...but junkai don't want to go and russh will be going there at 3..guanghao and junkai both having something on in the afternoon..so it was cancelled..

sorry russh..cause i didn't know that el and gh are going so off so early and i didn't ask shaun whether we can stay later..so in the end disappointing time and time again..really sorry..

went back to school to hand in something after movie..was stuck in the rain in school so just stay in the canteen..then went to the basketball court to watch rain fall...(emo hor)..along.. wonder why so emo...haiz.. but i really like rainy day.. somehow it make me feel relax and let me clear some thoughts...to think carefully...

nothing caught me attention..

don't know what to write for today...have filled up the ogl form and going to give tomorrow. today is the last day for H3 math application...don't know whether to take or not..cause it will help me in the future and even if i failed, it will not be reflected in the A-level cert...but that would also mean i have to spend a lot of time on it also...equal amount of time spend on H1 sub...don't know whether i can take it or not...this is the reason that bothers me..stopping me from taking the form.

had received my results on mon..a "S" for gp initially, but then added 3 more marks for compre..to make it to the E...

when i got back my paper, i was very low...i though i didn't make it. didn't pass gp..was feeling very depressed..thinking of ways of getting more marks to pass gp..i looked through the paper again and again..thinking if i get 1 more marks for AQ, 1 more marks for summary, and 1 more marks maybe for compo, be it in content or grammer...anything..just help me get 3 more marks them i can pass le... they were just thoughts...didn't really think it would happen and 3 more marks is impossible to get also.. so i didn't carry much hopes..but i manage to get the extra marks for summary, because the points are there, but not in systematic order, so the teacher missed it..i was so happy at that moment..i pass GP..yeap..horrays!!

engliang and lam have improved for GP..they make it through without worries..hahaha...their compo was better then mine. i got 19 for compo..

failed chem again..35.5 out of 100..damn sad...but i didn't expect myself to pass also..cause i didn't do sesction C..so can't get me too far..expect it already. engliang has once again show that he's smart..he's the only one in my class to get a E for chem... 3 S and the rest all U..sad case.....die le..haiz..but don't give up yet..it's not the final judgement..

wowowo...today's performance was wonderful..and i can see that my guitar people are starting to open up during the past week of training... and i would like to say..great job today. though it may be the first public performance to some of them, but you guys have done well.. love your..but hor. didn't get to take photos with you guys is a pity...
hope to take with your next time.. we should celebrate for today's success..

not said a performance without faults..there are.. for the first performance, we didn't do a good job. maybe because there's isn't any audience bah,..it's at 12.15.. who will come so early..so not much people, except teachers and mj students..

but the second performance is great.. because a lot of audience was there when we performing..

want to say thanks to choir one more time..really really appreciate your efforts!!

thank you arvin for all the efforts in the guitar broth...a job well done,,...

open house today was a sucess...haha. a pity that i didn't go for the interhouse dance..hope there is video for the whole even, then can watch..hahahaha

been busy with guitar practise for tomorrow's open house..

we going to play sway..and lemon tree..haha..

sway only took about 2.10 min and lemon tree took another 10 min..then like very short..(lemon tree was added in only after the dry run then we realise that it's not long enough for 15 mins of performance..)

have been practising since Monday all the way to tomorrow
hope it will be a success..

yesterday was still wondering how are we going to settle the extra time..then choir chair and vice chair..( vj and andre) came to our rescure.. they want to push back their time of performance..because they are performing with dance at the same time slot..so they want to wait for the dance to dance finish then sing..and it solved our problem of having extra time..hehehe..thanks choir people for solving our problem...

then we also came to an agreement to perform together- lemon tree..hehehe. it's a first time collaboration between choir and guitar.. hahaha..it's damn cool lah..must go and watch oh..

then the choir people actually take our words seriously..we were joking with them about adding in guitar in their posters around and they are serious..they did that..and i'm so touch..sob..thank you choir..you rox..^^ we will do something for your also..hehe

all the best for tomorrow...bless us.

first... here's a question for every one.. what's A*B*C..alll the way to Z (*=time)..

yesterday was doing pw at mac..then around 7 when i was leaving the mac. i try to save the file..but damn it..it didn't save. so i have to go home and chiong the wr..until 2 in the morning..sian.hate pw..

recently recieved a lot of songs..thanks to all those who send me songs...but don'e download too much..k. don't want your to get caught..hehe..

here's another good song. a english song..never let you go by janice wei lan..if you want can ask form me...^^

pw druing sat..playing game..

the ans is zero (0)..because of the "O" in between....hahaha..cold.

haiz..

today is the second day after my promo exam.. was feeling lost at first, cause suddenly don't know what to do...hahaha..siao lah. was doing pw this morning, in school. thought there will be wireless, but no,,... don't have.. so in the end didn't do much. now have to do..think it will be late into the night bah..hahaha. will have big eye bag like russh then..


saw yan lin and angelina studying for promo..jun kai and i was disturbing them..acting so care free. ( after promo le mah). looking at them reminds me of what we have been through..it's a tough battle.,.but with our friends and teachers supporting us...mugging with us..somehow.,, it give us strength to carry on and not give up.. so guys.. i think we deserved the long rest after the long battle. don't think too much after the test.. just enjoy first. relax..listen to songs..


here some good song..by F.I.R..需要你的爱..三个心愿

歌曲：雨季..歌手：张峰奇

歌曲：夜的方向..歌手：张峰奇

歌曲：想太多..歌手：李玖哲

歌曲：千年恋歌..歌手：东方神起 (Korean)

so sorrryy.. only chinese songs..you can provide me with other nice songs

^^

during the exam period..was feeling a bit emo..then i wrote these down..( sorry,.. in Chinese also)..

已经过去了。

没有挽回的机会。

想你的一颗心得不到安慰。

你以不是我的谁。

不会为你掉眼泪。。。

ya..don't know why also..a sudden urge bah.. hahaha..don't laugh.^^

this is the very first post after i cancelled my previous blog..cause the previous blog was messed up by me..so i have no choice but to cancel the account..hahaha

well..just ended my promo yesterday..it's a long battle..four days of continuous exam, with a lot of things to study before that.. was mugging for one three weeks (i think)..so tired during the mugging period..and it all ends so fast.. three full weeks of study ended in just 4 days..what crap..

wish it was like TPjc..one week one test..hahaha..then got one whole week to mugg for one test..

a lot of my friends are already preparing for the worse..their are choosing what course to take when they go poly if they retain for next yr.. i would tell them that..don't worry to much.. if you work hard duing the exam, you will be rewarded, but if you didn't, then you can worry.. or maybe you won't get retatin cause you are very smart.

don't worry too much.. just enjoy your freedom, for the time being, don't think too much..