today was suppose to go school for op...but didn't cause don't have..i though my group has..so sorry..hm...

then asked yun yun to help me print the verification slip to collect my GV membership card..thks yun2...and my birthday treat, a free movie ticket when i buy one,,,, asked russh to go watch with me, he said don't want, he want me to reserve it..but tomorrow is the last day le...so then watch it with my mum..

we went to GV at tam to watch "brother"...i must say, this is a very good movie to watch...casue it keep you in suspense till the end..yup..it's worth the price..heeheeeee..cfutbf??!!

just one more week, we are left with only one more week. that's all...after that we will separate and say bye bye.....hopefully we will cross our pathway someday...i want to treasure every minutes, every second but you don't allow it..lord. why?

yesterday i went to east coast park for a walk...looking at the people fishing, at the calmy sea but missed the sunset...did feel better after that...

http://koji1227.imeem.com/music/_VhCEV3p/element_how_do_you_heal_a_broken_heart/

how to you heal a broken heart >>>

I can't believe what i just heard
Could it be true
Are you the girl I thought I knew
The one who promised me her love
Where did it go
Does anybody ever know

(C)
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again
Oh no
I just can't let go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
Oh no(A)
Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I'll pretend to let you go

(girl)And were you ever what you seemed
Or was I a fool who fell in loveWith his own dream
And now you say you want to leave
Start a new life today
Those words I thought you'd never say(C)

(A)
Tonight I'll hold what could be righ
Tomorrow I'll pretend toWake and put it all behind me
And find that I have finally found
A new life
In my soul
And find that I know how to let you go
You go(C)

Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow i'll pretend toWake and put it all behind me
And find that I know how to let you go

以经过了好久，
心还是在流泪。

说好会不哭，
只要你幸福。

没有见到你的身影,
没有听到你的声音。


没有了时间，
却多了思念。

每一次删除你的简讯，
就好像在删除我们的回忆。

就让我们回到最初的开始。。

a day with mixed feeling...both happy and sad...we will seeeeeeeeee........

still as low as ever...but then something very stupid i did today that really brighten my day...don't want to talk about the early part in chinese class... ms tan walk out of the class. and so we don't have chinese today lah basically....

so don't want to talk about that...well, after so called "chinese class", went to ws with friends to eat lah...then still have to go back school for guitar meeting... when it ends, it's around 3plus le..play some stupid card game with s301 class people, until now, i stilll can't solve... GEMIT...hahaha

GEM IT...new term that i'm going to use...

after that, was supposed to wait for erich to go michael's house to teach him, cause tomorrow is Combine science(cheM) o-level exam.. but he got squarsh training, so i went along.

listening to janice weilan's song"never let you"along the way, it made me feel emo...

now is the fun part, i was teaching two other friends of michael at the funtion room, but they went out after a while to take a "breath" so i also went out, wanting to chat with michael. outside the funtion room sat this guy about the same size as michael, same hairstyle, about the same built.. so i though it's him,

then sat beside him, at the arm of an armchair, and pat "him" on the back, (i wasn't looking at him at that time, i was looking at some people playing pool) and said,"eh........." as i said that "eh", i turned around and to my horror, it's not michael but a resident...i was so stun,

he look at me, and i look at him...so throw face lah..immediately i said sorry and left...so so paiseh lol.. i was amazed at myself also sia..how come never see clearly first then sit down...i laugh like shit when i'm out of the room..

don't dare to go his house again lah,...if see the guy again,.blur...wondering what was he think at that time.."siao, who's this guy"

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh

我也不知道为什么在我的生命中虽然有很多人离离合合，可是你的离去却带来这么多的痛。。。我也以为你也许只是我生命里的一个过客。不会逗留，可是我错了。你的存在的却影响了我。。你不再是一个过客那么简单了，而是一个常客。但是我也更清楚的知道，有一些东西不管有多不舍得还是要放手，（像阿木的歌）。。应为这是为了你好，也是最好的抉择了。

我并不是想让你难过，真的。最不想看到的就是你难过的样子，就算要离开也要笑着离开。至少不要让我看道你难过得离开，应为这样会让我心碎，让我伤心，会让我后悔放你走。。

不要让我觉得这样。

所以你不可以难过，要勇敢。知道吗？人生的分分合合，其实也是一种希望，有分就会有合，没有分就没有合了。还是会见面的。。。

我想我会习惯一个人的孤单和安全感。。。

志勇下。

人最大的罪孽就是贪念。。得不到的人一直渴望得到。。可是得到并不代别一定会是你的。。得到的人却一直担心会失去，拼命得想留住，可是到最后还是要说再见。。得到不一定是件好事。..。因为得到后失去才是最痛的。。。失去的可能又复得，得到的终究会失去。。如果失去又复的，那么那是多么珍贵，好好珍惜。得不到就代表没有缘。。不必要强求。



人们都知道说失去后才知道珍惜，每个人都知道，可是又有多少人真的会在失去前去珍惜。。谈何容易。。。



挣扎了好久。。一直不敢问的问题还是问了。。你真的要走了嘛？？虽然我知道答案，但是还是要问，不管心里有多么的不想听到。。。我等着回复。。你说对不起，让你失望了。。要走了。好好珍惜剩下的时间。。心一时沉了下去。。好深好深。。见不到底。



你说有一天我会忘了你，有新的开始。到那时就不会在伤心了，不会在难过了。你是一个很普通的女孩，并不是很突出，在我的生命里没有太大的影响力。。会遇到更好的女孩子的。。到那时一样会忘了你。。我不知道。。我真的不知道，应为在某年某月某一天，某样东西或某一个人一定会勾起回忆。让我再一次回到没有你的世界。。好想再回到梦里。。不要叫醒我。



志勇上。。。

we all know that time will heal ones' wound..but do we know why...it's because it erases ones' memories..when all the happy memories are being erased then you won't feel the pain any more...because when there's nothing to think of, naturally one won't feel sad...as it is all lost in time, can't be retrieved..no rewinds..no second chance...gone forever..ever......so before anyone really leave you... give them an forgettable memory..one which will stay in him or her forever.. and beside that..don't leave any regrets..my motto (but i don't think i'll be able to do that, what a failure)..

i've never dare to ask you the question.."are you going away for sure"...cause i'm afraid of the answer...but i think i know the answer le.. if you think that's the best way out..all i can say is..jia you in your next stage of life..

was feeling low these few days..from wed onward.

don't know what to write so i'm not going to write..

mr tay's baby holding on to my pinky..goshh..super duper cute lah..so peaceful..

today was a tiring day..but meaningful day. a great time together with Friends.

woke up at 8.52 am...preparing to go tam mall delifrance to collect wr from ms fau..her msg a bit confusing..she said meet at tam delifrance, century square. at first i though it's at tam mall delifrance. so i went there, but she wasn't there. so i went to cS delifrance..that delifrance is under renovation..lol.. still got a bit to change and the Op really has to be done by tue or wed already...jia you..

after that went out with felix, sherlyn, yanxuan, sam, kelvin, wenfong to marina square's kiddy palace to buy baby stuffs for mr tay..cost 72.5...
nick said don't want to go last min, cause too far, and it's my fault also cause i didn't tell him the place first..
same old kelvin..never change sia..as wacky as ever...
for sam., didn't change much also..grow taller a bit bah..
sherlyn loss a bit weight bah..think so..heehee.
felix and wenfong didn't change also..
yanxuan also didn't change lah..kao, see her in school everyday mah..haha..but hor today i think she's very moody..a bit emo sia.. always in her own world. and can't seem to communicate well with her leh..that's what i think lah..maybe not bah..or i over react le..

after that went to charmaine's house to celebrate her birthday...then talk about the old times...hahaha..so funny when we talk about the past and laughed at it...very happy today..engliang so inelasticity sia..insensitive..must spend more time with her mah..hahaha..

around 6.15..left charmaine's house and went for 211 BBQ.. taking same bus with mich..along the way, she's actually msging samuel sia...they only take a look at each other only..hahaha..crap lah..sam.

was very funny when mich and i were J-walking the high way..she don't want do walk and was standing at the side there crying,,"don't want..ah!!..hahaha..."in the end, i have to pull her with me to the other side..or we will still be there..""Ah-ing..''''hahaha.. (=_='')lol..

yun2 has night-blindness..then was playing with her..cause there's path where there's no light..she was feeling her way lah basically..haha. it's the same when we went back home..i was looking for walking sticks for her..hahaha..damn fun playing with yun yun... now know why lam likes to bully her..haha

went to sit at the beach with mich, yun yun and guang hao..looking at the sky. the sea..the gentle breeze..got food..everything is nice..perfect but looking at the person sitting beside me.(mich)..haiz..wrong person..hahahaha..mich and i said that at the same time..heeheee=P...

but all in all. it's a wonderful night..had fun, laughter and food..thanks kevan..for organising this.. really enjoy it..

it was a terrible day today, not because anything bad happen or what..in fact it was quite fun today, but for today nothing seems to get my attention. was feeling a bit low..

morning went back to school to mark attendence and then no class. i was merely back to mark my attendence, then after that went to library to loan some VCD and went to shaun's house to watch..guang hao, engliang and i...we watched windtaker.. not a bad movie.

watching movie wasn't part of the original plan. the original plan was to go airport to do either pw or op...but junkai don't want to go and russh will be going there at 3..guanghao and junkai both having something on in the afternoon..so it was cancelled..

sorry russh..cause i didn't know that el and gh are going so off so early and i didn't ask shaun whether we can stay later..so in the end disappointing time and time again..really sorry..

went back to school to hand in something after movie..was stuck in the rain in school so just stay in the canteen..then went to the basketball court to watch rain fall...(emo hor)..along.. wonder why so emo...haiz.. but i really like rainy day.. somehow it make me feel relax and let me clear some thoughts...to think carefully...

nothing caught me attention..

don't know what to write for today...have filled up the ogl form and going to give tomorrow. today is the last day for H3 math application...don't know whether to take or not..cause it will help me in the future and even if i failed, it will not be reflected in the A-level cert...but that would also mean i have to spend a lot of time on it also...equal amount of time spend on H1 sub...don't know whether i can take it or not...this is the reason that bothers me..stopping me from taking the form.

had received my results on mon..a "S" for gp initially, but then added 3 more marks for compre..to make it to the E...

when i got back my paper, i was very low...i though i didn't make it. didn't pass gp..was feeling very depressed..thinking of ways of getting more marks to pass gp..i looked through the paper again and again..thinking if i get 1 more marks for AQ, 1 more marks for summary, and 1 more marks maybe for compo, be it in content or grammer...anything..just help me get 3 more marks them i can pass le... they were just thoughts...didn't really think it would happen and 3 more marks is impossible to get also.. so i didn't carry much hopes..but i manage to get the extra marks for summary, because the points are there, but not in systematic order, so the teacher missed it..i was so happy at that moment..i pass GP..yeap..horrays!!

engliang and lam have improved for GP..they make it through without worries..hahaha...their compo was better then mine. i got 19 for compo..

failed chem again..35.5 out of 100..damn sad...but i didn't expect myself to pass also..cause i didn't do sesction C..so can't get me too far..expect it already. engliang has once again show that he's smart..he's the only one in my class to get a E for chem... 3 S and the rest all U..sad case.....die le..haiz..but don't give up yet..it's not the final judgement..

wowowo...today's performance was wonderful..and i can see that my guitar people are starting to open up during the past week of training... and i would like to say..great job today. though it may be the first public performance to some of them, but you guys have done well.. love your..but hor. didn't get to take photos with you guys is a pity...
hope to take with your next time.. we should celebrate for today's success..

not said a performance without faults..there are.. for the first performance, we didn't do a good job. maybe because there's isn't any audience bah,..it's at 12.15.. who will come so early..so not much people, except teachers and mj students..

but the second performance is great.. because a lot of audience was there when we performing..

want to say thanks to choir one more time..really really appreciate your efforts!!

thank you arvin for all the efforts in the guitar broth...a job well done,,...

open house today was a sucess...haha. a pity that i didn't go for the interhouse dance..hope there is video for the whole even, then can watch..hahahaha

been busy with guitar practise for tomorrow's open house..

we going to play sway..and lemon tree..haha..

sway only took about 2.10 min and lemon tree took another 10 min..then like very short..(lemon tree was added in only after the dry run then we realise that it's not long enough for 15 mins of performance..)

have been practising since Monday all the way to tomorrow
hope it will be a success..

yesterday was still wondering how are we going to settle the extra time..then choir chair and vice chair..( vj and andre) came to our rescure.. they want to push back their time of performance..because they are performing with dance at the same time slot..so they want to wait for the dance to dance finish then sing..and it solved our problem of having extra time..hehehe..thanks choir people for solving our problem...

then we also came to an agreement to perform together- lemon tree..hehehe. it's a first time collaboration between choir and guitar.. hahaha..it's damn cool lah..must go and watch oh..

then the choir people actually take our words seriously..we were joking with them about adding in guitar in their posters around and they are serious..they did that..and i'm so touch..sob..thank you choir..you rox..^^ we will do something for your also..hehe

all the best for tomorrow...bless us.

first... here's a question for every one.. what's A*B*C..alll the way to Z (*=time)..

yesterday was doing pw at mac..then around 7 when i was leaving the mac. i try to save the file..but damn it..it didn't save. so i have to go home and chiong the wr..until 2 in the morning..sian.hate pw..

recently recieved a lot of songs..thanks to all those who send me songs...but don'e download too much..k. don't want your to get caught..hehe..

here's another good song. a english song..never let you go by janice wei lan..if you want can ask form me...^^

pw druing sat..playing game..

the ans is zero (0)..because of the "O" in between....hahaha..cold.